Winter break has been good to me. It's been very healing and eye-opening. A lot of family and friends have come to me for a change; I didn't have to go out of my way to spend quality time with the people that mean the most. That's been such a blessing, having an incredible amount of love welcoming me back to Philly with open arms. I wasn't expecting that. I guess my expectations for people have dropped over the semester, probably because I spent the majority of the time having one disappointment after the next from the same man. I definitely stopped respecting myself and became pretty blinded.
I never appreciated how good I had it here in Bryn Mawr. Becky and Abi and Kelsey and Laura are so so good to me! So far over break I've gone on a handful of adventures with my girls as well as my best-friend-sister Mariel, and it has made such an impact on the healing process. The cousins from Kutztown came down for Christmas day, and it felt like I never left. The bustling of babies and the abundance of food and game-playing was exactly the same. My beautiful cousin Ally kept close by me throughout the night, I love her so much, and I know she loves me. It's amazing to see the difference of relationships I keep at home and kept at school.
But at the same time, I love Logan. Utah State is a sweet place. In eight days I'll be flying back out there, to face my problems and put my feet firmly on reality's ground,... and to stay for a whole year, so as to establish residency and therefore qualify for cheaper tuition. Thank you, Pennsylvania, for treating me so nicely. It's been more incredible than I could have asked for, for this short stay of mine.