so much on my mind

where to begin?!

Today as I was eating my delicious italian dinner all by my lonesome, I was listening to President Uchtdorf's talk on the forget-me-nots. I also happened to be bawling up a storm. He sure knows how to make a lady feel loved.

I didn't know today was fast sunday and had yogurt before church, so I didn't feel bad cooking when I got home from it. I cut up a whole onion and cooked it, and added a half a pound of sausage and some cans of diced tomatoes and a smidgen of sour cream and spices to it to make another one of my homemade sauces! I couldn't help myself and picked at it from start to finish, it was so gosh darn good. That paired with wheat linguine made a pretty satisfying sunday meal, if I do say so myself.

Ben got me a TON of birthday presents this year, one of which was a gift certificate to the nail salon in the mall. On Wednesday I went and got em done, hot pink, and I've got to admit I'm super proud of the fact that all nails are still perfectly intact! And I still have money on the gift certificate, just enough so that I can go back in a couple of weeks and get a french manicure this time. I love pretty nails.

Can I just say how happy I am? I have been ridiculously happy lately! There's never a dull moment being with Ben, and that's just how I like it. I love how happy we are together. How goofy and giggly and silly we are. I love how smart he is. I love how he teaches me new things every day. I love how passionate he is about sports, and how exciting it is for me to get into it, too. I love how good he is at the tuba and how gracious he is to all of the new guys in band that are much, much younger than he is. I love being able to take care of him. I've always felt a desire to have a say over someone else's life - my siblings know that about me all too well. But cooking for two is the best feeling in the world. Talking on the phone in between classes, planning the rest of the day and scheduling in date nights throughout our weeks gives me joy beyond comprehension. I feel domesticated already, and feel so comfortable and contented knowing that each day I get to be in his arms.

Another thing to add to the Why I'm Happy list is being a part of Utah State's band service sorority, Tau Beta Sigma, finally. TBS is so much fun - and I find fulfillment out of having my voice heard when it comes to all things band related. I forgot how much of an opinion I have about everything, haha. And I love being able to do things for the band. It is my whole life, pretty much. Ben and band. ;)