oh the joys of 5 days in bed.

Happy Independence Day! Today's gonna be a great one - it HAS to be. Not only is it the first day back into the real world for me, but I get to see my pops and siblings and nieces, and celebrate little Phoebe's 3rd birthday. So this dumb mystery infection/virus better leave me alone quick! 


I've been in bed since last Wednesday, not sure what's wrong with me. Every four hours or so my fever either leaves or comes back with a vengeance. My temperature's been from the low 96's to a high 102.3 and everywhere in between. Saturday night I went into the ER with the worst pain all over, and after 3 hours all the doctors could come up with for me to take is this broad-range antibiotic called Bactrim. And I'm supposed to take it with food and lots of fluids, but oh great! It also causes nausea. Guess who hasn't been keeping anything down since she got outta the hospital? This girl.


But today is a great day. I don't care how I'm feelin today, I'm going to work and I get to see my awesome coworkers and I get picked up by dad at the end of the day, to drive south and be with FAMILY for three whole days. That's Such a luxury for someone who hasn't seen any relatives in 7 months, minus Mariel's family a couple short times. Ben's been the closest thing to family for me while I've been out here and I'm so grateful for that. His family came and picked him up yesterday for a family reunion of their own up in Idaho somewhere, and silly mister sickness so rudely interrupted their visit. Talk about a great impression I made: clammy and shaky and fever on the rise. I didn't even get to say goodbye, properly. I just stumbled out of the car after a half hug and a few broken sentences.


Anyway.


While I'm down in Spanish Fork, we'll move Kaleb into his new apartment and start him off with a fresh batch of college groceries. And then on Wednesday Mariel graduates from Orem Police Academy!! She's perfect for that career path, I know she'll be a great cop. :) Oh, and to top it all off, Thursday morning I drive dad to the airport, and then I GET THE VAN! I get an ACTUAL. VEHICLE. I can't wait!!! I won't be keeping it forever, though. Once school starts up I'm supposed to sell it. But that's okay, I'll take what I can get.


All right, it's 3 in the morning. I think the nausea's dying away, so I think I'll get some more sleep. Goodnight! And have a GREAT fourth of July. I know I will.

Just kidding. Mister sick, you are not my friend ;)

cold pizza and sleepy tea

ow.

Everything hurts. It hurts to move. I've been freezing and burning all day long. I keep waking up in a sweat or with a huge, aching crick in my neck that I can't fix with because it's so swollen I'm afraid I'll break it. Surprisingly, though, there's nothing wrong with my sinuses or stomach. Mom says it's a virus and all I can do is drink and drink and drink. Ben's been taking care of me nonstop, bless his heart. He got me soup and sleepy tea and ginger ale and medicine and warm wash cloths for my poor little forehead. But I've been so darn hungry today, so finally I ordered an extra-large pie an hour before Ben left for his overnight shift at Walmart.

Usually when I'm sick, it's an ENT (ears, nose, and throat) problem. Usually I'm weak and tired and quiet. This time I've been so ridiculous! So demanding and wanting to be up and moving and whiny. So when the pizza delivery boy arrived 15 minutes late with cold food, I was rude. I'll have to call them back up tomorrow and apologize. I had to call in sick to work today, begrudgingly. When I take medicine the pain is bearable. But the moment it wears off, it's a good 7 out of 10 on the pain scale.

I'm just wasting away in bed and on facebook with harry potter movies constantly streaming in the background. I gotta be prepared for this final movie, y'all. I mean, who isn't gonna watch all seven movies leading up to it? (I told you, I'm ridiculous.)

And I miss Beeeeeeennn. He's only been gone an hour and a half. But I don't know what to do without him :'( - oh, and I take back the ginger ale comment that I added to the list of the things he's gotten me. Because he hasn't, yet; but he better, or there Will be consequences. :)

summer serenity

Life moves so slowly.
I feel lonely a lot.
I hardly get to see anyone anymore with my work schedule.
I want to meet more people in my apartment complex.
I might have lost ten pounds recently.
Bycicling daily and extra veggies go a long way.
It's been six months since I've last been home. 
Since I've last seen my mom and dad and grandma.
I miss them.
I decorated my room this weekend. 
That's something, right?
But it is peaceful here. 
I sure get plenty of "me" time.
Plenty of time to spend with God.
And I guess I should cherish the simple life.
Cause I have a feeling it won't be so simple for long.

5 days too long...

... and that's exactly how long Ben and I stayed broken up. 

I realized I can't live without him.

 And he learned he couldn't ever again let me go.