RS general broadcast

I thought I would take notes on here, since its easier to type than to write in my broken journal.

Sister Julie Beck: Relief society is a compass and guide for righteous women. Understanding relief society strengthens their foundations. Align his daughters in his work. Enlist his help... We study our history to know who we are. PRIORITIZE MONEY! Teach young women to be sober, willing, chaste. The constant theme: sisters who utilize the power of the Holy Ghost are blessed and receive revelation.


Sister Silvia H. Allred: You don't have to be married to keep the commandments! The Lord says, I will not forget thee. The Lord loves you. He knows your hopes and your disappointments. He will not forget you. The Lord grades you on your effort. Our faith in Christ will give us the confidence to face life's daily challenges. We have to remain temple worthy to receive our covenants, so we can see our family in heaven and be with them forever. It is so important to understand the plan of redemption.

• Prayer
• Scripture Study
• Obediance
• Service

The Lord expects those who are strong to strengthen the weak. As women, we have an essential part in the plan of happiness. Each of us are needed to build up his kingdom.

Sister Barbara Thompson:  Visiting Teaching. In Alaska, home teaching was impossible. Prayerfully though, they found ways to bless and strength their sisters. Sisters who truly seek to love one another find meaningful ways to accomplish this task with the Lord. Sometimes the best part of the visit is to Just Listen. Or do some housework. Or calm a crying a child. Don't look at it as a burden; it is a blessing. 

(Interlude)

President Thomas S. Monson: Our soul has reason to rejoice tonight. The spirit of the Lord is here. How do we look at each other? Are we making judgments when we don't have all the facts? None of us are perfect. And yet for some reason, we have a tendency to point out the faults of others. There's really no way to know the heart of others. For some reason, we find reason to criticize. 

Not only do we judge actions but we judge appearances - clothing, hairstyle, size. "You could lose customers by putting up such people". Oh, if only they could have known him. Appearances can be so deceiving. It's such a small measure of a person. If attitudes, deeds, and spiritual revelations were reflected in appearances...  Such differences are almost endless. Do these differences make us judge one another? Mother Theresa's commitment was to love one another. 

CHARITY NEVER FAILETH. 

Charity is the pure love of Christ. It is the opposite of criticism and judging. Charity manifests itself when we are tolerant of others and lenient. Forgiveness, patience; charity compels us to be sympathetic, compassionate, and merciful in times of weakness and error on the part of others. There's a serious need for attention to those who are unnoticed. True charity is love in action. It's resisting the impulse to become offended easily. It is accepting people as they truly are. It is looking beyond physical appearances, to attributes that wont dim over time. It is resisting the impulse to categorize others. In a hundred small ways, all of you are advocates of charity. Recognize that everyone is doing their best. It is the highest, strongest, noblest kind of love. 

Charity Never Faileth.

friends

(michelle, catherine, me, and leslie)

"... inviting me down there. On such short notice! 
Even if I wanted to go, My SCHEDULE wouldn't allow it! 
four o'clock, wallow in self pity...
four thirty, stare into the abyss
five o'clock, solve world hunger - tell No One.
five thirty, jazzercise
six thirty, dinner with me - I can't cancel that again! 
seven o'clock, wrestle with my self loathing... 


I'm booked!" -- The Grinch


Sometimes I feel like the grinch. For reals! School schedule vs. a social life. 
I'm working really hard to have the very best of both.

night owl

I'm sitting here outside of the choir room before university chorale rehearsal. And Im thinking about my plans for tonight. Appropriately enough, I'm wearing my only graphic tshirt that says night owl. Last night was a blast and I think that I could get used to this, definitely.

Oh.

And I like a boy.

hesi... tation

Tonight was a good night. We played Fresno State in football and it started out as a good game but we ended up being creamed. It didn't matter though, because regardless of the score, I continued having a blast dancing and playing... 

...and eating the piccolo's community food. I love my section in marching band! They are all so maternal and giving - I was so full after the popcorn and frosted animal cookies and triscuits and sandies and homemade chocolate chip cookies! People are sweet and spending my time here with all of these people makes me feel wonder how some think there isn't any good in the world. Im completely immersed in the good in the world right now. Then after the game, we all quickly went home to change and then met up at a fast food joint, this time Burger King, to eat some very late dinners and tell jokes. 

It wasn't as long as last week's afterparty, but enjoyable anyways. We were pretty much kicked out, so we loitered for a while then most people left and the remains of the group ended up going to Sarrong's apartment and watching a movie. I fell asleep so many times throughout the movie! But I tried really hard to stay awake. It wasn't too hard to regain consciousness though, because I happened to be sitting next to someone I like very much. Well, after the movie, I stumbled to the car and was so dead, but once we arrived at my place, I talked with Megan for hours in the car. It is coming up close to 4 am, and I just got in. I got in to my sleepy roommate and the dorm floor silent. 

The reason why I am titling this entry as such is because as I'm spending all this time with band people, I leave out my dear dorm friends and I'm sad that I can't be with them too. Like, it's my decision, so it sucks that I feel like I'm letting them down, as they are fully aware that I'm making them a lesser priority. On the other hand, as I spend all of my time with band people and in particular some men who spark my interest, I am so nervous that I'm going to mess it all up. Never before have I felt the need to be so cautious about my actions. And that's weird, because these people are incredibly similar to me and just super kind and accepting. Instead of letting my guard down, I'm... hesitating. I don't understand why though. Maybe my approach to this new constantly social thing is from an overly laborious point of view. Maybe I'm being too strategical about friendships and experiences I have with my friends. Whatever it is, I know that I'm creating an extra obstacle for myself.

I think too much. AGHHH! 
Oh - random fact: today (well yesterday) was my one month mark of being on my own.

precious solidarity

I am alone and am realizing that this sensation doesn't come around too often anymore. I'll admit that I love the college experience of constantly having friends at your side throughout your days, but being alone for once is nice. Back home, being alone was so necessary - because my days seemed to get out of control for some reason or another, and there was nothing I could do but cool off in my room. Here, though, I have plenty of control over my days, and I really love being able to do so much in the day and come home feeling contented and accomplished. I am so happy - so blessed - for all the friendship, love, and support I've found here. It's easy to get sentimental when I'm alone... oh! but my roommates are back now. So much for solidarity :) until next time!